*disappointments in life*

sometimes life is just filled with disappointments that we have no control over, a friend or loved one dies, it rains when we were hoping to go to the beach, all of these are uncontrolable by us. then there are those disappointments in our life that we have complete control over the grades we recieve in school, spending the day being bored feeling like there is nothing to do. on days like this we always have a chance to change it. as i finish my term today i realize that all my hard work in my classes wasnt enough hard work i should have worked harder, and then maybe just maybe i could have recieved "A"s in all my classes rather than having to settle for a couple of "B"s. of course i know that b's are good but as always i strive for perfection and b's are not a's. it just shows that i need to work even harder on the rest of my classes. im not sure why i strive for perfection, but in my eyes i suppose i just want to prove something, not exactly sure what that something is, i mean i still know that when i look at myself there are a lot of imperfections. the way i look, how i take care of myself and again these are all things i can change, but because i strive for perfection, its hard when i dont see the desired results right away, and i better than most realize that it takes time, but being impatient isnt always a great thing. the old saying is true "patience is a virtue" yes it is.... patience is something that not many of us are born with but something that all of us can learn to have. im still working on having patience. no point in dwelling on the things that can not be changed, change the things that can be, and make everything else fall into place and be happy with what life has given.